I’m lost. It’s sad, but true. It has been three years since I turned my back on my faith. This is all because of the death of my fiancee. She died in a car accident. I was behind the wheel. I have been waking up and going to sleep with guilt all these years despite her parents and everyone around telling me that they do not blame me for anything. To this day, I can’t comprehend the reason behind my fiancees death. But I’m tired of asking questions and demanding God to give me the answers. I decided to join a Christian tour to Israel to find Jesus again, or for Jesus to find me. I hope the Holy Land will help save me from myself.